I had the best intentions with my "happiness project" (notice my deflated tone there, hence the lowercase). I did. In fact, I must admit that I was sort of expecting a call around day 147 of the project from some fancy publisher wanting my blog to go all "Julie Powell". And eventually, I was sure, it would be picked up by a producer somewhere and would go all "Julie and Julia" minus the food but plus the happy. I had already narrowed my list of actresses to play me down to Gwyneth Paltrow or perhaps Sandra Bullock since she is the it girl right now and she does look good as a blond, sort of.
BUT, I forgot one crucial element in my big plan: There's no gentle way to say this; but I am not known for following through with grand plans. For that matter, I have a hard time finishing off a bottle of shampoo before starting a new bottle, much less finishing something that takes 365 days. I think I was being a bit optimistic.
And I have discovered that I just don't want to talk to my blog everyday. Sometimes, I just want to be alone. I like that I can abandon it for a few days without having protective services knocking on my door. And this project just won't allow that.
So, humbly and a bit shamefully, I am cutting the project. I could blame it on budget cuts or lack of support from the higher ups, but truthfully, its just me. I overextended my abilities to follow through- I should have made it a one week project and I would have OWNED it all over the place.
But don't think that its the complete end, because its not, it will pop up when you least expect it, in little nuggets.