We had a great Easter Sunday yesterday! I was feeling much much better and we were able to go to church and spend time with both sides of the family. Adler had a great time too- he is quite the egg hunter! He figured out that the good eggs were the ones that were hard to find.
We got home last night and finally got Ad down to bed around 9. I was exhausted. And then I had a chance to look at my house and realized how terribly unkempt (putting it nicely) that it was and felt even more exhausted. I have mountains of laundry that needs to be washed, and a bigger range of mountains that need to be folded and put away. I have toys scattered EVERYWHERE, dust 2 inches thick covering every surface of my house, a refrigerator and pantry that need to be organized and most definitely refilled, floors that haven't seen a mop in ages, a half finished room that NEEDS to be a playroom, a playroom that NEEDS to be a nursery, bathrooms that need some attention to detail, taxes that need to be filed....the list goes on. I feel weary at the thought of it, and ashamed that I am falling down on my job as the keeper of my home. I know that as a Christian wife and mother, God expects so much more from me. I am nervous about bringing another child into the world, about how I am going to be able to possibly handle the responsibilities when I often feel I am barely holding my head above water now. I pray today that God gives me the desire and strength to be the Proverbs 31 woman He calls me to be.