Other than that, things are good. I have started working out again and it hurts so good. Want to know my thinspirations?
where I want to be this summer
where I'll probably be this summer
(Either way, it will involve a swimsuit, though!)
So, I had to google to get those pics, so I searched “thinspirations.” What a scary return I had! I didn’t realize that word is the word that was an eating disorder term. So I got to see a bunch of pictures of incredibly skinny, incredibly sickly girls. Did you know that Olivia Newton John’s daughter battles with anorexia? Anyway, apparently, there is a pro-ana, pro-buli movement out there that celebrates eating disorders. You can even order bracelets that are a certain color for anorexia and another for bulimia. After looking at some of the pictures, I feel a little sick to my stomach.
So, I haven’t really started eating much better yet; usually the more I exercise, the better I start to eat though. I hate working my butt off on the elliptical and knowing I only burned off the coke I drank for lunch. That knowledge usually curbs my desire for empty calories. I am hoping to be back in my pre-pregnancy summer clothes this year. I was able to hide it this winter because of big sweaters and jackets, but summer clothes are so unforgiving! I am really tired of wearing the same 3 outfits though, because I have refused to buy in bigger sizes. So, unless I want to do that this summer, I am going to get back in shape! I will let you know the progress.
So far, after week one, I haven’t lost a pound though! I can, however, complete 3 sets of 12 of the regular style push ups. No knees involved; and I am pretty proud of that. I credit that to lugging around a 27 lb weight all day long- thanks Adler! Now, if only I can figure out a way to carry him around with my thigh muscles, I can get them down to a manageable size!